I Love Fall

It has been wonderful fall weather the last few weeks. The leaves have all changed and are falling off the trees. Dads are raking them into big piles and kids are jumping into them. The sun is shinning and the air has a cool bite to it. The moon has been big, bright and so close to the earth it looks like you could touch it. I would love to climb up there and listen to the quiet of the night. Tonight we gathered up the kids and the dog, put our coats on and went for a walk. It is still warm enough that your nose doesn't turn red when you have been outside. What I love about fall or autumn which ever you prefer, is the sign of change. It is a beautiful sign and symbol of change. The change of weather, seasons and soon the year. I think fall has struck me more this year than ever, because my life is in a season of change. Although I have always loved fall. God just gave us a short burst of rain. You could hear it consume the night and then before you know it the rain was gone. That in itself reminds me of how things consume my life and
I think it will never end, then before I know it, it's gone and I've moved on. Hopefully gaining knowledge from the trials in my life. Currently I feel like a huge storm has just moved through my life. Just a week ago there was rain so hard you couldn't stand outside with your eyes open. Wind strong enough to tear the roof off our hippie trailer. Lighting and thunder bright enough and loud enough to awaken and frighten the manliest of men. Now those things have moved just far enough to go outside and enjoy the rainbow, but you can still see and hear them in the distance. As I stand gazing at the rainbow, the sign of hope and love, I thank God for bringing me through it alive. I am also still amazed by what just happened, and am not yet ready to move on. To grow, change, fully learn from the past events. Oh, how I long to get over myself and focus on God, it is hard to not be selfish when you have spent months being completely self involved. Basically what I am saying through this cheesy very descriptive blog is I need a quick swift kick in the ass. How's that for wrapping it up in a nice pretty box and putting a bow on it. I am just in one of those moods when I want to say ass. I have to say that is my favorite "bad" word. Have a lovely night!