Kids Sunday

The church I go does this thing called kids Sunday. If there is a 5Th Sunday in a month it is a kids Sunday. All kids five and older stay through the whole service and we try to make the service appropriate for them and their parents. The Sunday school classes take turn running the kids Sundays. This coming Sunday is my classes turn. I think it is going to be pretty good. We are going to talk about David and his life before he was king. We'll do a skit summing up his life starting with Goliath and moving through when Saul tries to kill him and he flees. Then he goes to Goth and acts crazy. Then the message is going to be on the Psalms he wrote during that time. I think there will be things there for everyone. The skits are being told like David is a professional wrestler, and Saul is his coach. I hope it all comes together, and that we all have fun. I am excited about it tonight because I got pretty much everything done that I had on my to do list. Now we will just have to wait until Saturday when we get together with the kids and practice. I think it is pretty cool that our church does stuff like this. They have a great focus on the kids and making sure they take part in the church body and really feel like they have a place. I have to say that is one of the biggest reasons I go to that church. Thank you God for a great church with a great church family. I just pray everyone can find a place where they fit in and feel comfortable. Not saying it is the greatest church in the world and that there aren't things that I dislike. There are things I don't love but when I really think about the good out weighs the bad. Praise the Lord.

Lillian Update

I just got an email regarding Lillian ,she has developed pneumonia. Because of the she is having a hard time breathing and they will be moving her to the ICU.
I know most of you don't know Lillian or her family, but I can't help but think about her, thus she is in my blog. This is one of my biggest fears, one of my kids having Cancer or being very ill. So helpless and scary. I feel for her family. Who from what I can tell are doing pretty well considering. For her so little and in so much pain. Not understanding what is going on. Please pray for her.
Before I go I have a quick story about her brother. He is a smart little boy and has given his life to the Lord at a very young age. He takes every opportunity to share the gospel with people around him. When his parents told him about his sister, they didn't want to scare him but also be honest. They let him know she was very sick and she could possibly die. His first response was, but Lillian doesn't know Jesus. His parents told him that God would let her go to heaven because she is young and doesn't understand her sin or what Jesus did for her. He was very happy about that. What a great kid.

I have friends that need your prayers

I have friends Jim and Autumn. They have a little boy who is a little older than Emma, and a little girl that is 2.5 years old. The little girls name is Lillian. They use to live here in Moscow, but moved to D.C. so Jim could go to a school back there. In May they will be moving to Florida, where Jim has a job. The end of last week they had to take Lillian to the doctor because her arm she had broke was not healing. After many tests and moving her to a different hospital, they got some bad news. Their little Lillian has Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia. Scary! It almost doesn't seem really. She is such a happy cute little girl and now she has to fight for her life. She started chemotherapy this last weekend. She will be in the hospital about a week undergoing intense treatment. If things go well she will be released home. She will then have about a month of intense outpatient chemotherapy. If things are going well then she will have less intense outpatient treatment. All of which will total about 2 to 2.5 years. Jim will still be finishing school and they will be moving in May to Florida. I heard today that Lillian is in a lot of pain, her stomach is hurting a lot. She is also telling the doctors she is not sick and she doesn't want medicine. She is tired of being tested and poked etc. Because Jim is in school and Autumn a stay at home mom, they have been living off of the money they saved and made off of their house here in Moscow. I'm sure every area of life is stressful right now. Please pray for this family.

My Easter Weekend

I had a pretty good Easter weekend. It started Saturday Morning with Lily's birthday party. She had a Barbie 12 Dancing princesses party. 12 little girls dressed like princesses. It was fun. They all had a good time. Instead of a cake Jeni had a Chocolate fountain with white chocolate died pink, very girly. After that We watched March Madness, and the cougs are kicking butt! We also made pizza. Sunday morning we got around and went to church. After church we came to our house with my parents, grandparents, and my cousin Jacobs fam. They have a new little baby. We watched the girls open Easter baskets, and run around all crazy. Around lunch time we went out to our friends the Hightowers, for Easter dinner. I think there was over 20 people there. We had wine laughed, played, took lots of photos, and ate really good food. Mike makes lamb that is to die for. We also had a chocolate fountain, which prove to be very entertaining. Sunshine kept daring me to fill this little port glass with chocolate and chug it, but it is hard to chug chocolate. Then by the end of the night I had stuck my tongue in the fountain. Martin has a really good photo of it. Then Ike and I decided that was the best way to use a chocolate fountain. I ate way too much chocolate. I had fun. I love getting together with that group of people. We have decided to have a Moroccan night in May and we will all bring a Moroccan dish, and any Moroccan friends we may have. I hope you all had a great Easter.

Such an ass!

Can I just say I have a lot to do in the next couple days, and it isn't even close to being down. I feel like I am not getting very much done each day, because a million other things come up. I also don't want to do anything I need to do. I kind of feel like causing trouble or going on an adventure. Which I know is immature. That's why I am saying I am such an ass. Just suck it up Mel and get it done. I will but I have a feeling it will be at 2 or 3 in the morning. So much for sleep. I am also very excited for this weekend, it's Easter. I love Easter, but I also love Easter dinner. We go to the Hightowers and eat GREAT food. I can't wait. This post really is nothing important I just felt like rating myself out as an ass.

My heart hurts for my friend

I don't like it when people hurt. I really don't like it when someone I love hurts. I have a very good friend, best friend, who is hurting. She is stressed, hurt, and struggling. I hate that I can't be with her. I really can't help. I can pray for her and be here for her to talk to. I can also open my house for her. The thing is I feel like all that really isn't that helpful. At the end of the day I can't make the pain go away. I am posting this because I want her to know I am here. I love you and care for you. You really are a best friend. I want the best for you. You are amazing. I am really excited for you and the art show you are going to be in. When I get to hang out with you it makes my day. We have tons of fun together, and I feel like you like me for who I am. Thanks! I learn from you. I am inspired by your passion and love for God. Most of all I love I can poor my heart to you, just sit and cry, make fun of people, be crazy, be silent, call you shit head, and just plain in simple have fun. I thank God for you and your friendship. I am here if you need me, to talk, cry, if you need out, etc. Sorry things suck!

A day of shopping

Today I went shopping with my girls, Mom and my friend Kambrea. We had fun in Spokane, shopping eating lunch etc. I was hoping to talk to my Mom today, but it was hard to do. I am glad Kambrea came with us. Her husband is out of town and she is lonely. Plus she is going to be moving away soon, so I am glad I got to hang out with her. I do plan on talking to my Mom by this weekend. I don't know why I am so scared and nervous. I can talk to her about anything, but this is hard. Regardless it was a good day.

Girls Night

Andy is gone tonight, so we are having a girl's night. There are four college age girl's coming over for dinner. They are all very sweet and I am excited to hang out with them. I am excited about tonight, but at the same time I feel like I should be a role model for them. I don't feel much like a role model, because I am struggling through some huge things in my life. I just hope I can let it go and just have fun. Tomorrow Mom and my girls and I are going to Spokane shopping. Not that I need to go shopping, but why not. It will be a good chance to talk to my Mom. I have some hard questions for her, and I am nervous about the conversation I need to have with her, but it needs to happen. I don't really know why I am typing this, but I think I just need to put it out there. That way I will be somewhat accountable. Anyway, all of that just to say I am excited for girl's night tonight.

Hoo Ha are you there?

Hoo Ha are you there? I haven't heard from you in a few days and you have nothing new posted. Very unlike you. Are you alive? Did you run away? Did your computer blow up? Is your new hair cut so hott, that some cutie asked you to marry him and you are honeymooning on a tropical island? Just wondering!!!!! By the way if you are home and your computer didn't blow up and you aren't sick then send me a photo of you new hair PLEASE!!!!!! I love you!

I feel a little lost

Before I went to VA Emma was very mouthy and emotional. Since I have been back the mouthy thing isn't as bad, but the emotions are on a all time high. She also seems to be very angry. I am not sure how to deal with it. I know she is upset by me leaving and all, but it has to be more than that. I mean it is out of control. I feel like I have a teenager. I guess I am putting this out there because I need prayer for wisdom, patience, and strength. Also that I won't take things that she says personally, as she can be very mean with her words. If anyone has words of wisdom that would be great other wise please just pray. Thanks.

It lives inside me

There is a pain
A darkness
It's overwhelming
Controling
And always present
I feel a desire
or
urge
to surender to it
to bow down
and let it control me
but I am torn
Two opposite sides of the very same coin
The knowledge that I should run from it
I turn
My heart says run
my head says run
but it's then I realize
the pain
the darkness
it's inside me
how do you run
from something
something
that calls your body home
in the midst of the hurt
it is almost a comfort

I am home and I had Fun

I had a lot of fun in VA. It was really nice to get away and just enjoy being. I didn't have to worry about anything, I just got to relax, have fun, and let God talk to my heart about what needs to happen next in my life. Now that I am home life is in full swing again. Wed. is our busiest day full of school, Bible Study , dance class and prayer group. I also have the "homework" from Joey. I am on it Joey. Well the flights home last night were fine, all pretty much on time. By the time I got to my car it was about 10:45pm. I had about a 45 minute drive home. I wasn't half way home when Andy's car died. Yep, dead on the side of the road, nothing around, dark, cold. Thankfully my Dad came and saved the day. What a way to end a long day of traveling. Now we just wait to see how much the car is going to cost. Anyway, I got home and just so you know, people in VA, our snow is GONE. Yeah!!!!! No more snow. It actually looks like spring and feels like spring, I'm loving it. I miss ya'll in VA I had a blast and it was a much needed get away.